Being Mindful of Where I Need to Go
I'm trying to figure out how to get my motivation back to where it was 18 months ago. But I can't seem to work up the state of mind that it takes. That got me to wondering, what is the psychological mindset that it takes to get into the groove? What is that motivator? I'm sure it's different for everyone. But what was it that made me "ready" 18 months ago that I'm having trouble recapturing today?
For one thing, I was so fat I couldn't bend over to pick something up that had fallen on the floor. For another thing, I spent about a month mentally preparing myself for what would be a long and difficult journey. I watched FitTV even if I didn't workout. I looked for healthy recipes even if I didn't prepare them—yet. I read other blogs. But the whole time, I kept telling myself that on this particular date in the future, I would begin.
So that's the point I'm going to start at today. I'm not going to rush myself. I'm going to stop pressuring myself with internal talk like, "By next Friday I will be" how ever many pounds I've decided is a good number. I'm saying one month from today, I am going to begin again. Until then, I will be preparing. Not by eating everything in sight, but by becoming mindful of what it is that I need to do.
So my beginning date is June 5.
